fail?

Maybe i am failed about my schoolwork. But what can i do? Can i make up my performance? I hope i can. If i real fail, what should i do? Maybe i'll lose everything.... My friends, my job, honey....lots of thing. I can't cry because I cause this results by myself. I can't tell anyone because i don't know how to tell. Even they know about that, what can they do? They couldn't help me. It's all my business, so i have to face that by my own. I even have no idea how to face yself. Originally, everyone is jealous of my job and my boyfriend. Everything looks so perfect. Maybe i am too arrogant that cause me ignore the schoolwork. I really don't think of that day will happen. Though, i really hope that day won't come true. I'll do my best to beg the teacher give me chance. I don't know whether it will work or not. If I really failed, i'll face everything. honey~i don't know how to talk about this thing with you. Gosh! it feels so bad. Just kill me~ i wanna disappeared right now!